Mid Life Crisis?

Had this intense sense of despair and a inability to comprehend where I'm headed .... Ended up writing this. Unedited words on a phone keyboard... 

It's Diwali night 

The lights have dimmed 

The din of cracker's has petered away 

The smoke hangs heavy in the air 

And others' tired eyes welcome sleep

Instagrams and smiles and wishes

Linkedin posts and whatsapp messages

Remind me to give my life a thought 

What's all this ... 

Niceties or nought?

In a hurry to get nowhere 

Too caught up in the virtual world 

No time to stop and care 

To teach and spend and learn and laugh

 

And soon the years will all be past 

And the hands and eyes 

That seek help today

Will hopefully pause and look my way 

And while dissatisfaction grows inside

It's time to turn the wheels within

To find the time to challenge oneself 

Be it run, work or play instead

 

Give joy and be there for them 

A patient ear, a helping hand, or just time ...